very much in love... only 3 weeks into e relationship and i felt like i been through so much... sometimes i feel as sweet as honey, sometimes i feel stringing pain... sometimes i smile and sleep, sometimes i cry to sleep... maintaining a relationship is an art... totally different from being with friends where there is no expectation, jus being together anywhere, anything, anytime... i feel i don deserve this love at all... done a terrible thing somehow and hurt the one i very much loved. i feel so tired, emotionally drained but mentally still fighting on bec i do wanna continue loving n cherishing him... din regret having loved and to give whatever little love i can and to have him... i learnt so much... how to deal w all e misses, opening up with each date, how to shower love, reflecting on what i could have improve on, realising once again how difficult it is to maintain any relationship, what it takes in any relationship and how i take for granted all the love showered on me from friends and family in my life... i need to seriously think n act to make changes i once vow... things r not perfect... and i never expected it to be so but the least i wanted is to learnt how to give love and to let it come in... but i seem to fail both terribly somehow... but i wont give up yet... i haven even try... no matter how hurt i am unwillingly, i wont give up bec he is worth my every love n wait... love is afterall a risk u have to venture bravely. kevin... i do veri much love u so... not asking for forgiveness but asking for a chance to give u xin fu again if i ever make u feel so... i cant help but sorry is the only word i can find... i cant remember how many sorrysss i have said since knowing u... countless... give me some time to settle down again, to express myself truthfully, to understand your thoughts, your world, your dreams, your every words, know, feel n share your feelings and to make an effort n give n make u feel loved over and over!
and I'll never let u go...
XOXO @ 6:04 AM
